Thank you Allah..!

was posted in my old blog on at  1/20/2011 06:15:00 PM

I used to think that a group prayer (jamaah) will only divert my concentration (khusyu’). Suddenly when I’m in one, my tears won’t stop flowing. It’s endless. “Subhanallah!” I said.

I used to think that it is hard to tell a cousin to change. But Allah hears me. A day after my serious thought to tell or not to tell her, she suddenly changes! It was because of a death of a friend that was so sudden; it reminded her of how she is at that moment. Now we always have a discussion or small talk about iman and ‘mini-tazkirah’ during breakfast or lunch (eat lunch together and talk about our Islamic issues).

I never thought that Allah listen to my deepest thought. It’s the kind of thought that I will erased quickly. It’s like a blink. But Allah listens. And HE is the most gracious God who teaches a ‘nobody’ like me how to love HIM. And now I’m craving for that.

I just hope for ‘istiqomah’. I’m a human being after all. I’m weak. My iman have their ups & down. Hope Allah will always guide me.

Please!