He woke up

Abah opened his eyes yesterday night. Whole lot of tears. Everybody rushed to his room. He responded when we call his name. His eyes moved to your direction. He recognized when people introduced themselves. At times, he said "yes mom" or "where is she?" when grandma called his name or my aunt said "mom's here".

Allahuakbar!

For whatever reason; be it good or goodbye, all praises be for Allah. الحمدلله.

Kopiah

It's 2:00 am. My dad whisper in his sleep.

"Where's my 'kopiah'?". Pause.

"..put it on (me)..". Pause.

"..hasn't gone back yet.."

"Mana kopiah abah?". Senyap kejap.

"..pakaikanlah..". Senyap.

"..tak balik-balik lagi.."

Then @ 2:33 am;

"I want to go & sleep at home".

Sad.

Abah mimpi

Abah mimpi atok. Aku tanya; kat mana? Abah jawab; kat rumah lama. Abah naik kereta. Atok naik basikal besar dia tu. Atok nak ke Semenyih. Abah cakap kat atok; tak payahlah. Naik dengan dia je. Lepas tu abah terjaga. Abah sibuk nak bangun & pergi somewhere. Sibuk tanya; along mana? Macamana perancangan abah ni? Nak tunggu along. Aku ingatkan perancangan nak pergi Hospital Selayang esok. Meleset. Sebab dia sambung "atok suruh beli &jkd£# ni.."

Allah. Sembuhkanlah abah. Pulihkanlah abah. Bunuhlah sel-sel kanser dalam badan abah. JAUHIlah abah daripada syaitan yang direjam. Amin.

Nothingness

And the owl said "go to sleep, makcik. It's 4:30 am already..!".

Deprived

Can't sleep last night. Remember shutting down the 5:00 am alarm. I think I dreamt of something after that. Blurred. Is it a dream? Cause later I shut down the 5:40 am alarm clock. Was that after dozing off? Did I slept?

Beauty

Watching a variety show on youtube makes me feel like starting a beauty regime (again? Noooo...!)

I don't know how long will this last thou..

Sunday morning

Everybody's waking everybody's up this morning. Abah is sick. Again. His chest & stomach hurt. Uya gave him an extra dosage of morfin. He's crying while everybody's holding his hand.

Allah, have mercy on abah..ease his pain.